I gained admission into the higher institution and everything started to seem. High intentions, high morale, high dreams, expectations were as high as the hills in Saki. a few years down the line it became a place of Higher regrets a place of countless ‘could haves’ and ‘should haves’. “If I had” became my best line starter. “If I was” became all that was on my lips after all I never did anything wrong.
I kept on with ‘if I had’ studied medicine or even accounting ‘if I was’ not sick during those exams. ‘If this dint happen’ ‘if that dint happen’ all that did not allow me see the real picture the only ‘if’ I have now is if only I had taken responsibility for all that happened I’d have been in a better place. If I had accepted my shortcomings, if I had agreed that I was not just a victim of circumstance, if I had agreed that I was at the centre of it all, I was the focal point and only I had the power to change whatever it was that was that held me back.
The bottom-line however is that it is never too late to make amends. I stood one day and took my time to reflect on all that was and it was then I realized that all this is on me! even if I have fallen short of my initial expectations my final expectation is one I must not miss. No matter how long the summer winter, is coming. In fact, winter is here!